Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Gasping...

Its been eons since i last blogged... i'm wondering are there still people reading or visiting this site... Working life haven't been all rosy and nice, it has took at least 5 years off my life. Working till 11pm, reaching home at 12, sleeping at 1am (occasionally if gin calls, then maybe 2), sitting in office at 8.30am... i wonder how long i will last...
i'm definitely prepared to work, beyond working hours, doing whatever needs to be done but its abit too much to ask for isn't it, for someone as new as me? Its just doing what can be done and hoping things turn out right. As the schedules keep changing and changing, i see no end to this project. Looking at all the people who came in at the same time as i did, sometimes i wonder, what ended me in this position? Wish those that knock off punctually will just go off... Ok i get it, you are done with work, yes i know you are going back. Heck, just leave!!! Please, do me a favour... don't say goodbye. They say, don't torture myself, but i don't see myself adhering to this impossible timeline if i don't stay late. 
Well a colleague of mine told me, you sometimes get the feeling tha you will just quit tmr and find another job, but once its over, you will be glad you persevered. Well, i'm getting the feeling already. I will walk straight up to my boss and tell her, i quit!!! :P But that will make me a quitter... haiz... no worries, i won't quit, at least not yet. Joan placed me there with high expectations (at least thats what i hoped), and if there's one person i should not disappoint, its her.  Lets hope everything ends well for me to experience the transient "RIP" feeling Ashley was telling me about.
Haven't had time for myself, no time for family, working through weekends, through nights... i'm seriously underpaid. Well i have to say sorry to gin, haven't got time for her (*feeling emo.. sob sob).  Remember myself telling Ashley and Yanni, i enjoy coming to work, really, thinking back, is it still true now? Well yes, to a certain extent, but i shall make a change to it. I don't really enjoy coming to work because of the work, rather, its the people. It used to be Caralle and ashley-s (both ashley)before, now its Yanni and Yong En (Ok to a certain extent michelle). Really thankful that now at least Yanni is sitting in front of me, all the talking cock and me disturbing her and vice-versa really cheered me up. Well i m thankful, and she is kind of an eye candy really =x So happy when splash came in, thought i could start small and start learning. Now... too much to handle, just not up to it. Lets hope everything is worth it. 
Hope... but Hope never escaped from Pandora's box...
Well, enough of complaining... i'll get through it just fine, like Pinky always do =P